Trying to Stay Positive

If you read my last post, Embracing Change, you know I’m going through something major in my life right now. Things have honestly sucked. I wake up and can’t believe this is my life. I’m not depressed – it’s not like when I was going through the PPD – it’s completely different. I’m not lost and living in a cloud. I’m grieving. I pretty much cry almost every single day.

I’m struggling, but I know God is testing me right now. I’m not sure why or what the lesson is, but I guess that’s not for me to know right now. So I’m just chugging along….drinking lots of coffee and wine, trying to keep my head above water, praying, journaling and trying to remember to laugh.

I was given the opportunity to laugh lots on Friday when I went to the Cubs game with my dear friends for my annual b-day outing. Yes, my b-day was last month, but it honestly couldn’t have been more perfect. My friends gave me the most wonderful day and the weather was perfect.

It was fun, it was needed, it was crazy, there was yelling, there were weirdos on public transportation, there was all kinds of inappropriate talk and a lot of booze. I’m so lucky to have such great friends! Thank you for a fabulous 34th birthday. And I love how we were already planning for next year….

Enjoy some pictures:

Go Cubs Go!
Go Cubs Go!

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The Hot Dog guy is super creepy...but we have another pic with him.
The Hot Dog guy is super creepy…but we have another pic with him.
With the hot dog guy in 2009
With the hot dog guy in 2009

The girls also gave me wonderful gifts and the most amazing cupcakes ever for dessert!

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The girls spoiled me!
The girls spoiled me!
We always do it up right!
We always do it up right!

Today Hubs, the Chiquita and I took a train ride downtown. What a beautiful day it was!

The Chiquita and I. Can't believe she'll be 3 next month!!!!
The Chiquita and I. Can’t believe she’ll be 3 next month!!!!
I sported my new earrings today from the girls!
I sported my new earrings today from the girls!

My other gift which I will have a future blog post about….

This wine glass holds AN ENTIRE BOTTLE OF WINE! Wait till I try it out. ;)
This wine glass holds AN ENTIRE BOTTLE OF WINE! Wait till I try it out. 😉

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